fucked up midterm

i think i should reorganize my whole life again from now on, i can't be done like this

what is this..?????

I haven't log in xanga for a very long time~I just know that i wrote alot of things in xanga since 2005 ........things that i don't really remember ....so i think it's time for me to write dairy again ...iit's really good to see what you had wrote  and you will keep thinking what the hell i was talking about...or why would i say something like that?? LOL anyways I have been with dickson nearly a yaer, but our relationship goes on and on.....

i just discover that on may 31 21:48 pm

別愛我 別再說 我們都太自我想要的 想說的都不同作一個假動作 說你要離開我不想再分分合合 情感勒索別再說 不必解釋什麼語帶保留是你的陰謀你給我的溫柔 佔滿我的生活我還以為你只牽我的手就別愛我 忘了我的溫柔掛掉電話的那一刻 我有多麼捨不得十指緊扣 卻扣不住天長地久你說的承諾 我丟進漩渦就別愛我 假裝我很灑脫原來我為愛努力著 跟自己說你愛我為愛執著 最後還是選擇自由靜靜的放開手(慢慢說出口 謝謝你愛我)我坐著不動 把自己放空我刪除所有 不和你連絡

it will never come back...........

i know what to do ....and at least i am trying!!!